For some reason, I’m up at the wee hours on Resurrection Sunday (“Easter”) putting tabs on the chapters in my relatively new bible. In all of my thirty something years on this earth, I’ve never bought a bible and I’ve definitely never tabbed one. In the past 30 days, I’ve bought two bibles, various devotionals, signed up for online bible study courses, re-committed myself to my friend’s women’s fellowship & bible study, reading The Purpose Driven Life, researched churches to attend, contacted a small group for fellowship, and committed to a daily fellowship (relationship-building) with God.
I’ve also, in no small way, re-committed my life to Jesus Christ via a video on Pastor Rick Warren’s site. And I also recommitted myself to Jesus Christ by saying the prayer in my Purpose Driven Life book.
I haven’t tried to get to know Jesus this much since I was a young teenager, maybe 12 years old or so, living in Aurora, Colorado. I can remember my best friend and I going to church together. Her family was so kind to include me in their spiritual lives – for these early actions I am so thankful. I remember going with my best friend, J, to see Billy Graham, and I was so happy to hear his words.
I think there is a thirst in my life and my heart for Jesus Christ. I think there is something deep but natural about this yearning that I have to learn more about Christ. I often hear his words and my heart feels completely overwhelmed – like overcome with love, acceptance, and peace. I often cry when I hear the Good Word. I know what it is.. what it feels like to be moved by the word. And in the past few weeks, I’ve been getting messages directly made for me.
I’m not sure what to make of all this emotion, passion, interest, zeal, and re-commitment. I just know that it feels good and it feels right. And I don’t want to stop…. in fact, quite the opposite. I want this feeling and fellowship with God to continue and deepen.
And I’m already beginning to see that my relationship with God is making me a better person. It’s preparing me for the wife that I want to be and the mother I want to become.
Dear Lord, please resurrect me. I love you and want to be close to you. It is so amazing to be loved by you Lord. For you, I must rise and become the soul you designed me to be. Oh Lord, please help me and guide me to grow in my faith and devotion to you. Dear Lord, I am grateful to be here on this early Easter morning communing with you and feeling your presence. Thank you Lord. Amen.
wishing you God’s hope, peace, and joy,